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29 Jun 2013

Everyone else: Meh... Summer's here.. Whatev... Me: WTC? Winter is over?!!

I just wanted to make another summary of things. (I'm going to my dad's on the 1st of July! Can't wait to finally see him!)
I realised that I never mentioned how many views I get on this blog. I guess it's time to write about it. So overall (starting from October 2011)  I had 5,615 views.
Switzerland
1880
United States
1015
Mexico
751
Russia
516
Montenegro
508
France
233
Germany
188
Ukraine
143
United Kingdom
51
Albania
42
And, yes, if you're a creepy stalker I can find out where you come from, how you found my blog and what operating system and browser you use. Mwahaha! I know everything!
This month I had:
109 views from Switzerland 
50 from the US
40 from Montenegro
29 from France
27 from Germany 
13 from the UK
11 from Russia
3 from Albania
3 from India
and 3 from the Netherlands
This week I also had views from Switzerland, US, France, Montenegro, Russia, Germany, India, Serbia, Sweden and.... JAPAN!!! Hello Japan! ヾ(^∇^)
I have no idea who all these viewers are. I know who is from Switzerland, France, Mexico, Montenegro or Albania. But who are these people from India, Ukraine, Sweden...?
Whatever country you come from, viewer, you're welcome here! 

26 Jun 2013

"Am I hurting? Am I sad? Should I stay, or should I go? I've forgotten how to tell. Did I ever even know?" - Bad Apple

School is over and I don't feel anything. Some are happy, others are sad and I don't feel anything. The only thing I actually feel is regret.
On the last day of school I realised that I might never see some of the people around me ever again. I wish I could go back in time and thank everyone for just being around me. I understand that I might not mean a lot to them, but to me they mean quite a lot. To them I might be just a classmate, a student, a friend or maybe even a stranger, but I'm still thankful to have them at some point in my life.
First of all I want to thank my best friends throughout this school year.
Dear Carolina (aka A...ctually never mind),
I will always remember you as being the funniest one out of all of us. You might not have noticed it, but some of things you said while being serious were funnier than most jokes. You are very kind in a childish manner and naive. I like you for being sincere and not trying to pretend to be someone you are not. You might have made all of us angry at some point, but you made me realise that some people think differently from others and that you shouldn't get mad at their opinion. I hope you find good friends in England who love you for who you are.
Dear Hiba (aka mamaji, aka terrorista),
Even though we've been together ever since the beginning of the year I realised that I don't know you that much. You never "waste" your words, but you aren't a quiet kind of person. The funniest moment with you was probably when you asked to go to the bathroom in English class. Zoum! By the way, look in your smiley face notebook. My name is all over it! Domos are awesome! Don't bomb the school before we graduate, ok! Just kidding! xD Love you mamaji!
Dear, Franny (aka Chococaramel, aka the youngest fashion designer, aka Stylechicfrancesca, aka fashionista, aka Sun...ever mind, etc.),
"Mr Woodbridge: Francesca, why are you so loud?
Franny: I'm black!"
I want to tell you that you have an amazing personality (although you have so many)! You are so unique! I don't think there's another Miss ChocoCaramel in this world. Despite all the little fights we had I still love you. You are, officially, the most annoying person I know, but this is what I will always remember you for. Do I even have to mention our dreams and thought about our future? Going into Hugo Boss, thinking how in 10 years we will come back famous. Planning vacation without telling our parents, thinking what hotels we could stay in and what places we should visit... Don't forget our awesome picnic and the wind that almost blew all the food away! What about the BFF day last year? When you lost your voice and got drunk on slushies. (Slushies! This is not Twitter, but... #Slushies4ever) Our BFF book and the BFF box. I still have them! Our one-week obsession with polymer clay, thinking how we could sell our creations and become millionaires! I will miss your awesome personality!!!!
Dear Marina,
My 1D-obsessed darling! Remember the time we came to visit you at the hospital, pretending to be your relatives, but weren't allowed in? The time you invited us all to the restaurant and Yasmin got fined on a train on the way there? I loved the times when we stayed after school with you. We could talk about anything and not be ashamed or embarrassed. Please, be who you want to be and not what other people want you to be! Cheer up because life is just about to start!
Dear Judit,
You've been with me ever since my first day at school. Thanks for walking up to me, the new girl who didn't speak English. I'm thankful for all the times we have had together. Remember our love for teddybears in 4th grade? How we believed that all toys were alive! I'm sorry that I hurt you in 6th grade. All of us make mistakes and I think that it was my mistake not to be your friend! I'm glad that you opened up to me and forgave me for everything I have done. Also, I love you for being who you want to be. It seems like you don't care what others think of you and that's a really good thing (not many people are like that). You are a very good friend who will never betray others! But, please, don't rely on people too much.
Dear Lydie,
My crazy tobasco-lover! Unfortunately, I don't really know you, but, from what I have seen, I can see that you're an amazing person. I love your originality and the way you want to bring out your true style. I know you probably won't read this because I never told you about my blog. But if you are reading this right now I want to tell you to be safe and look after yourself!
Dear Cathy (aka Jae Hee wachee wawawachee, aka N...ever mind),
You're an amazing piano player and a maths genius not only because you're Asian, but, also, because you are very smart! You are a very good and caring friend who will never leave anyone behind. You attract people not only because you're very pretty, but, also, because you have a great personality! I've heard that you're also a great singer, although I never heard you sing =(. I love your sense of humour! I know it's a very random thing to comment on, but you can be hilarious sometimes!
Dear Yasmin (aka Dr ¿Why?, aka icantsaythatname),
Do I even have to tell you that I love you?! Do I even have to explain how much you mean to me? You're the only person who can understand all of the following jokes:
Blue
Red
Red and blue
The messed up colour of A....
GPA Follow Grandparents' advice for it is very wise
But but but
Mamaji = terrorista
russian accent: I have the cocaine on this side, the herroin on this side
When someone's voice is weird or incredibly low: Aditya, you're going through a very very special time of your life
Oliver
My #1
Never gona stop, never gona stop RAGIN
Wachee
Alice
Cupboard (aka cupbutbutbut)
Suspension 
Can you comment some more? You see, this is why I love you! Thanks for being who you are with me! This keyboard can't express my feelings for you! Just.. Come here... Give me a hug! (another inside joke! In... Omg! I might get suspended!)

I want to publish it here because I want the world to know how amazing you people are!Thank you for being in my life!

13 Jun 2013

Who the hell came up with the idea of exams...? I want to punch them in the face!

This year I came to the point that I no longer care about exams....

On Saturday I went to the Vedanta centre and borrowed the Bhagavad Gita! It's such an amazing book. It seems like it's a book of all my thoughts and ideas put on paper neatly (does this sentence even make sense...?). Unfortunately I have to give it back this Saturday...
Instead of studying for my French exams I decided to take a walk. If you know me personally you probably know that I hate going for walks outside unless it's very important. It was raining, but I still went outside... Don't ask me why. I've been acting strange lately.
For the past couple of days I can't get the idea of being trapped out of my head. Remember when you were little you made houses out of shoe boxes? (Don't tell me you didn't!) This is how I see the world. You are trapped inside the little doll-house shoe box with cardboard cut-outs and glitter... And you can't get out of it. This is how I feel now.
It all reminds me of the first anime series I ever watched. I saw it in 6th grade and it is called Haibane Renmei. It's a story about a girl who lives in a town that is surrounded by walls. No one knows what is behind these walls and no one is allowed to leave the town or even go close to these walls. All the Haibane (the grey-winged) eventually leave the town at "the day of departure". Some think of it as death and others think of it as being let free.
When I was watching it I think I took the story too literally. Now I can say that I understand the meaning behind the story.
So now I have a question. Could death be considered as a release? The only way I could get out of the little shoe box world is by.... Dying...? No! That's not true at all... But how else can I leave this place..?
Maybe no one would mind if I leave this world. Could everything be just an illusion? It seems like all the people around me care so much, but it could just be.... That none of them really exist!

That's the first time I have ever considered dying an option. I will try to take my mind off this crazy idea. 

6 Jun 2013

WTC! June!!! o_O

(WTC = what the chod because saying f*ck is too mainstream...)
It's about 11 at night and I'm nostalgic... Again... I started listening to vocaloid and ended up listening to very sad songs by Meiko. Now I'm reading my old blog from 6th grade...
I was so different back then! I remember the times when I was actually a good student... What happened...? Wasn't I always the "can-I-get-extra-credit" kind of girl? I don't mind being who I am now, but I can't get over the fact that I was so different! I always think that if I went back in time I would never be friends with my old self...
I also found some funny stuff on my old blog. My favourite one was (bro, listen, I suck at translating Russian to English):
"It's February... And then it's my favourite March. Everything is blooming and reproducing."
I think my old self would get better grades than me now. I spend way too much time working on The Faith of the World project. I don't even know if it's a good thing or not. I mean, it's educational and it's not a waste of time, but my grades have gone down because of it! I didn't finish reading my English book and didn't study for my Vocab test because I was too busy reading about Vishnu and Shiva! And tell you what, Hinduism is awesome! It's more fascinating than any fiction novel I have ever read! I don't even know how I'm going to study for exams with this since this weekend I have to... That's another story!
The thing is I signed up for the Orthodox Church choir!!!
Wait! Let me make this clear once and for all! I do not come from a religious family. I only found out that you sing in a church a couple of months ago. The first time I visited a church was this year. Ok...? And I don't even celebrate Christmas...
So this little step made a big difference to me. First of all it was one of the few decisions that I made myself. I'm really proud of it!
Now every Sunday I have to get up at 9, walk to the old town, pass by the Lutheran Church, give it a creepy stare, smile, thinking "I remember that time"...
This Saturday I'm also going to visit... Actually, I'll tell you later! Get ready for another adventure.