Sometimes you feel like you need a friend. I have many friends, even best friends, but I've got no good friends.
I put my bag on the bench, thinking about friendship. What's friendship? People would say that a real friend is the one who would listen to your problem, give some advice, the one who's interested in what you're interested, etc. That's what I used to say before.
Still influenced by last afternoon, when I was rereading my old blog, I think of Katja and Peter. Katja was a friend I had always trusted. But we've never shared problems and never gave advice (I mean "friendship" sort of advice) to each other either. We were always "fine" or "good" or "I'm ok and you?". I tried to act "ok" in front of her. I've learnt from her and she learned from me. But was it because she was born with the same interests as me? Was it because we were supposed to be friends from the very beginning?
I need friends who can change to be like me, but a little better. People who want me to change are no good friends for me. I'll change if I feel like it. (For example I don't want to dislike classical music like Franny, but I may want to know so much interesting stuff like Yasmin.)
Now Peter. He had been my first best friends who was a boy. Then he became my boyfriend because people kept calling us a couple, so we were getting annoyed of refusing to them. I kind of miss those "I love you" notes and these "hugs and kisses" texts on skype. When I was with him, I wasn't being myself. I was trying to act better and...
So, basically, friends are made for you to change yourself in a good way. And since I don't want to change right now, I don't have any good friends.
Lunch time. Satisfied with my answer, I go to the lunch room. I don't want to talk to anybody. Where can I go to hide from people? Suddenly, I think of the library. It's a calm place with a few people and it's quite warm there. I "climb up" the Cervin stairs and meet Franny and Yasmin on the way. They've just watched something about vegetarians and Yasmin cried. What did she cry about? Killed animals or something that can convince you to be a vegy?
In the library, I try to find somethin about philosophy. "Biology, Chemistry, History..." I whisper while looking through the shelves. On the philosophy shelf I see a bunch of fat books with serious titles. Philosophy books are mixed up with astronomy books (while on the astronomy books shelf there are astrology and ufology books). "The third eye", "Oxford philosophy dictionary", "The history of philosophy," I read through the titles. There's nothing interesting for me. I don't need dictionaries or school books.
So I go to the "Adult books" section and choose "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho.
At least something...
I put my bag on the bench, thinking about friendship. What's friendship? People would say that a real friend is the one who would listen to your problem, give some advice, the one who's interested in what you're interested, etc. That's what I used to say before.
Still influenced by last afternoon, when I was rereading my old blog, I think of Katja and Peter. Katja was a friend I had always trusted. But we've never shared problems and never gave advice (I mean "friendship" sort of advice) to each other either. We were always "fine" or "good" or "I'm ok and you?". I tried to act "ok" in front of her. I've learnt from her and she learned from me. But was it because she was born with the same interests as me? Was it because we were supposed to be friends from the very beginning?
I need friends who can change to be like me, but a little better. People who want me to change are no good friends for me. I'll change if I feel like it. (For example I don't want to dislike classical music like Franny, but I may want to know so much interesting stuff like Yasmin.)
Now Peter. He had been my first best friends who was a boy. Then he became my boyfriend because people kept calling us a couple, so we were getting annoyed of refusing to them. I kind of miss those "I love you" notes and these "hugs and kisses" texts on skype. When I was with him, I wasn't being myself. I was trying to act better and...
So, basically, friends are made for you to change yourself in a good way. And since I don't want to change right now, I don't have any good friends.
Lunch time. Satisfied with my answer, I go to the lunch room. I don't want to talk to anybody. Where can I go to hide from people? Suddenly, I think of the library. It's a calm place with a few people and it's quite warm there. I "climb up" the Cervin stairs and meet Franny and Yasmin on the way. They've just watched something about vegetarians and Yasmin cried. What did she cry about? Killed animals or something that can convince you to be a vegy?
In the library, I try to find somethin about philosophy. "Biology, Chemistry, History..." I whisper while looking through the shelves. On the philosophy shelf I see a bunch of fat books with serious titles. Philosophy books are mixed up with astronomy books (while on the astronomy books shelf there are astrology and ufology books). "The third eye", "Oxford philosophy dictionary", "The history of philosophy," I read through the titles. There's nothing interesting for me. I don't need dictionaries or school books.
So I go to the "Adult books" section and choose "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho.
At least something...
u don't have to change to be someones friend, u just have to stay the way u are. thus what makes friends friends- people accepting each other just the way they are and not just better. and u said that u want your friends top change so to become like u and u also said that u would not change to become somebody else which is kinda unfair to your friend. so here is my advise- act normal with your friends
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