*sniff sniff*

So I haven't posted anything in October oops :/ A lot of things happened in October and a lot of things didn't. There was half-term break, I met up with Franny after two years! It was really great and we went to Hugo Boss to recreate the photo we took in 7th Grade. 

Also I made this masterpiece:

basically this is how normal people stay happy

 this is me:

Um yeah...
Also since this blog is like a character development/self discovery kinda thing, I guess I should write about this here. I'm now an extrovert. Wowww.... Well if you ask me how on earth that happened, here's the thing, it's my defence mechanism. Basically I realised that I charge my energy by being around people rather than being by myself. So, for example, in the past, when I hang out with my friends on Friday, I needed to stay home on Saturday to recharge. Now I'm the complete opposite and find being alone really tiring. But here's the thing okay okay listen 'ere. It's not because I worked on myself and faced my problems as a former introvert. Nuh-uh. The thing is, I love being around people because it distracts me from my problems. When I'm by myself I can't escape the unpleasant things I have to face/solve/deal with, but when I'm around people I forget and feel a lot happier. For example, let's say I have an English essay to write for Monday. If I'm at home by myself, I'll have to do it or face the "harsh reality" of doing it. But then - ooo, brilliant idea! - I invite my friends over so that I'm "busy" and there is no possibility of me having to write it. Is the essay gonna write by itself though? No. Yeah idek....
This post was so disgustingly self-centred wow.
so yeah because of my extroverted-ness I'm lonely af halp I need people please invite me to a party or something so I can forget about life

Complimenting strangers

So umm... I don't know how to start since I haven't posted in ages. Let's start with the fact that my friends threw a f*cking surprise birthday party for me!!! Like what???!!!! It's been a week now, but I'm still not over it. I'm not gonna go into the details of how everything happened because I've told literally everyone I know and there's no point really. I honestly didn't expect it and I'm just so happy to have people like this in my life <3 I had so much fun! Also, Dasha gave me a notebook with so many nice things written in it and I cried reading what all of these notes say. She's the best person in the world! I decided to use that notebook as a diary (no surprise there) and illustrate some of the things that happen to me every day.
The art exam went surprisingly well and it was all really chill!
The last couple of days at school before the holidays were amazing, but I don't think I should really reveal all the information about certain *cough* secret clubs and *cough* yeah who said that?
Also I think I should write about it here so I don't forget. Yesterday, being the amazing student that I am, I went to the library to study for my chemistry exam and I saw this absolutely beautiful girl on the tram, who was sitting in front of me. She was so pretty I literally could not take my eyes off her like she was that stunning! I sat there, staring at her the whole way through. I really wanted to tell her how beautiful she was, but then I just thought that it would be weird, considering how awkward I am, to tell her that, so I just... got off the tram. Yeah... Is it normal to compliment strangers? I mean should I have said anything to her without creeping her out?
Yeah I should be revising

I hate my past self

Vasjok left this morning so now I'm kind of lonely.

Yesterday evening we had our last conversation and talked about many different things. I hope she will use my amazingly successful love advice since, you know, I'm amazing at love confessions and all. 

Vasjok absolutely loves reading my old magazines, but the thing is that they are on the same shelf as all of my past diaries and notebooks. I told her that she can read any of them since I've changed a lot over the last couple of years, but letting another person read my past-self's thoughts was harder than I thought. I spent the rest of the evening cringing over what I've written when I was about nine. Back then I must've thought I was this cool popular kid, but when I look at the ideas I had back then I just want to live the rest of life in a dark corner, shamefully cringing over my past self. 

I had a go at re-reading the diary (which I posted about ages ago) I had in 4th Grade and I have to admit I wasn't so bad at story writing back then. I wrote this whole story about a boy called Timophey who lived in the country and had purple eyes because he was some sort of angel or something. Yes, I admit, the plot is terrible, but it all flows unlike my writing now. I had to describe a boy who was walking to school at a snail's pace in English class today and, to my embarrassment, had to read it out loud. Where did my good writing skills disappear off to? 9-year-old me, teach me your ways!

Also, Dasha, Vasjok and I went to Starbucks yesterday and the two of them bonded against me! It all turned into a conversation about how stupid and how much of an idiot I am. Ah, how much I love Dasha! 

The end is near

Well that was a dramatic title. I wanted to call this post "end of holiday" but Rosa came to the conclusion that I'm all mysterious so there.... Dramatic title!

I'm stuck in the mountains until Thursday so I didn't go to school today. 

Remembered it was Christmas Eve a few minutes ago. Good thing I don't do Christmas.

I want to travel. I keep in thinking about it. I really really want to travel. 

It's a good thing that the school year is almost over (relatively). I can now concentrate on exams only and spend the rest of my nights at the library without worrying about my lack of social life.

Visited this really cute village in the mountains under the name of Chamonix. There were so many Russians, I couldn't feel all bilingual and unique. Eventually, everyone will become one with Russia. Ah Hetalia... 

Will be at school on Thursday. I don't even know if it will be worth going there. I shouldn't say that since I just had a conversation with someone about being grateful.

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Anyways...

Vasjok's skiing and most of the snow has melted and been washed away by the rain. Oh well.

I started working on my Art exam. Well, kind of. Being the smart person I am, I didn't bring any art supplies with me to the mountains.
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New Year yayyyy

So I celebrated New Year a couple of da... yesterday actually. It was a lot of fun since my cousin was there. She told me all those cool stories about her school. So much drama! My school is so boring compared to hers. Everyone in my class is so mature -_- She told me that a teacher threw (literally threw) one of the students outside because he swore at her! I guess it's a good thing that this doesn't happen at my school, but I wouldn't be complaining if it did =P
Here's a cute pic of us <3

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Winter Break yayyyy -_-

So half of my good friends left to these awesome places to celebrate the holidays and the other half doesn't really want to talk to me because they're probably tired of my company. Or the internet is just not working :/
Everyone here is Christmas Eve-ing today and since I don't celebrate religious holidays I'm *clears throat* on my own~
I got this weird eye infection the other day so on the last couple of days of school I walked around with a swollen eye. I had to go to the doctor's and it was quite an entertaining experience because I tried to tell him that I want an eye patch and he must've thought that I was totally weird. I mean, seriously though, it would've been so cool if I had an eye patch! So many fandom references could've been made. The Walking Dead, Tokyo Ghoul, Another....

I was trying to entertain myself by going to town, but it all ended up in disappointment. When are there going to be sales? I started to wonder whether I'm ever going to be able to afford all the things that I want. Will I ever be able to walk into an expensive clothes boutique and be like "give me that gold-laced-fancy-shmancy-diamond-expensive-dress-thing and an extra one just for good measure"?
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Merry Christmas to all you Catholics out there! 

"Don't do Christmas kay...." - my maths teacher