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8 Feb 2015

It's been a year

It's hard to imagine that the opening ceremony of the Sochi Olympic Games took place about this day exactly a year ago! So much has changed since!
There was no war in Ukraine and no one quite knew what and where Crimea is. Both Russia and Ukraine were seen so differently in the eyes of the world back then...
So much has changed in my life as well. I remember we had P.E. a couple of days before/after the Olympics started and I was sick so I didn't go. Dasha went to the dentist's and came late so she also stayed in the classroom with me. Charlie was also there and the three of us drew all over the board and laughed about Lenin or something... I think I still have a picture of those drawings somewhere. 
My god!!! AHHHH!!!! I found the picture! What the actual f@#k hahahaha

Anyways...
On the day of the opening ceremony, my maths teacher told me off for wearing a hat that said "Russia" on it to class. I found that incredibly funny.  
I wonder where I will be on this exact day next year. Who will I consider my close friends? How different will my life be?
That was deep...

12 Jan 2015

Good hair day

^ title says it all \(^3^)/
Got an A* in my History mock!!! An A frickin star! It made my day!
(Physics grades don't really matter...... Riiiiiiight......? TTATT) 
I wish I lived in the world of One Piece. That's a really weeboo thing to say, but, think it about! It would be so cool to find nakama and travel the world with no money required. I could just get a boat and leave it to luck.
Poketto no coin soreto you wanna be my friend
Dasha is the best person in the world ^_^ She's one of the few people who really understands me.
I wish I wasn't forced to know certain things and get involved in things I don't want to get involved in. 
13-year-old me thought that it's better to live by only following your feelings. I wish I don't turn into that kind of person ever again. 

8 Jan 2015

I hate my past self

Vasjok left this morning so now I'm kind of lonely.
Yesterday evening we had our last conversation and talked about many different things. I hope she will use my amazingly successful love advice since, you know, I'm amazing at love confessions and all. 
Vasjok absolutely loves reading my old magazines, but the thing is that they are on the same shelf as all of my past diaries and notebooks. I told her that she can read any of them since I've changed a lot over the last couple of years, but letting another person read my past-self's thoughts was harder than I thought. I spent the rest of the evening cringing over what I've written when I was about nine. Back then I must've thought I was this cool popular kid, but when I look at the ideas I had back then I just want to live the rest of life in a dark corner, shamefully cringing over my past self. 
I had a go at re-reading the diary (which I posted about ages ago) I had in 4th Grade and I have to admit I wasn't so bad at story writing back then. I wrote this whole story about a boy called Timophey who lived in the country and had purple eyes because he was some sort of angel or something. Yes, I admit, the plot is terrible, but it all flows unlike my writing now. I had to describe a boy who was walking to school at a snail's pace in English class today and, to my embarrassment, had to read it out loud. Where did my good writing skills disappear off to? 9-year-old me, teach me your ways!
Also, Dasha, Vasjok and I went to Starbucks yesterday and the two of them bonded against me! It all turned into a conversation about how stupid and how much of an idiot I am. Ah, how much I love Dasha! 

6 Jan 2015

The end is near

Well that was a dramatic title. I wanted to call this post "end of holiday" but Rosa came to the conclusion that I'm all mysterious so there.... Dramatic title!
I'm stuck in the mountains until Thursday so I didn't go to school today. 
Remembered it was Christmas Eve a few minutes ago. Good thing I don't do Christmas.
I want to travel. I keep in thinking about it. I really really want to travel. 
It's a good thing that the school year is almost over (relatively). I can now concentrate on exams only and spend the rest of my nights at the library without worrying about my lack of social life.
Visited this really cute village in the mountains under the name of Chamonix. There were so many Russians, I couldn't feel all bilingual and unique. Eventually, everyone will become one with Russia. Ah Hetalia... 
Will be at school on Thursday. I don't even know if it will be worth going there. I shouldn't say that since I just had a conversation with someone about being grateful.

24 Dec 2014

Winter Break yayyyy -_-

So half of my good friends left to these awesome places to celebrate the holidays and the other half doesn't really want to talk to me because they're probably tired of my company. Or the internet is just not working :/
Everyone here is Christmas Eve-ing today and since I don't celebrate religious holidays I'm *clears throat* on my own~
I got this weird eye infection the other day so on the last couple of days of school I walked around with a swollen eye. I had to go to the doctor's and it was quite an entertaining experience because I tried to tell him that I want an eye patch and he must've thought that I was totally weird. I mean, seriously though, it would've been so cool if I had an eye patch! So many fandom references could've been made. The Walking Dead, Tokyo Ghoul, Another....
I was trying to entertain myself by going to town, but it all ended up in disappointment. When are there going to be sales? I started to wonder whether I'm ever going to be able to afford all the things that I want. Will I ever be able to walk into an expensive clothes boutique and be like "give me that gold-laced-fancy-shmancy-diamond-expensive-dress-thing and an extra one just for good measure"?
[insert an anti-capitalist "sharing is caring" comment here]
Merry Christmas to all you Catholics out there! 
"Don't do Christmas kay...." - my maths teacher

12 Dec 2014

Almost done with the mocks!!!!

The mock exams are really giving me confidence! I'm so happy with my results! Eeeeee!!! *moment of happy squeeking*
Here's me during the literature exam:
We went ice skating today instead of PE and it was a lot of fun although I don't know how to skate at all. 
Got a cute owl from Edna-chan, my secret Santa!!! I love Edna-chan. And owls. 
I got inspired by all of those "Sketchbook tour" YouTube videos so I dug out my old school sketchbook that I had from Year 5 to Year 8. So much stuff! I'll make a post about it tomorrow because it's really random, funny and interesting at times. I think I'll also make a post about an old notebook from Year 6 that I also found today. It has a really touching story about Margarita and a very strange one about me and how, I quote, "I've had a hard live. People don't understand. Really...". 
Peter, I will tag you in this post mwahaha! 
Okay bye.

8 Dec 2014

I need people!

Sometimes I think that I'm becoming an extrovert. Kind of. I sometimes have this urge to be around people and talk and laugh and be social. I guess it's an age thing and not really the process of becoming extroverted. I think I still "gain energy" from being alone, like an introvert, but being around people has suddenly become more appealing than ever before. (Did that sentence make sense?)
The thing I fear the most is that this year is a lot like 7th grade. I have this urge to talk to people, but I have no one to talk to. I do have a few good friends who are always there for me, but I'm lonely. 
I'm lost.
I don't want to spend lunches alone in the library, read fat philosophy books and make notes about the mysterious human nature like I did in 7th grade. I don't want to create any sort of fantasy world and ignore reality and the people around me, overwhelmed with strange deep thoughts that I can not share with anyone. I want to meet new people, learn from them and, simply, have a different exciting life outside school.
Is anyone as desperate as me to hang out with people and just... talk?
I guess there are some people at my school who I'm interested in, but I can't approach them due to various things. Or maybe that's what I think and nothing really serious has happened between us.

After all, I'm being selfish. And weak. I can continue on my own. 

21 Nov 2014

We started watching "Die Welle" in German class and it's awesome!

This week has gone by so slowly. School was boring. Nothing interesting has happened. A peculiar Russian proverb often comes to my mind. 
"The less you know, the better you sleep."
My first instinct would be to rant to someone about my "feelings", but I choose not to have feelings so I technically can't rant to anyone about them. That would make me look weak. I'm not particularly happy with myself nowadays anyway. 
I always dislike the second year of whatever it might be. Does that make sense? Is it too early to say that?
Everyone is so serious and I'm stuck here with impossible dreams I might never be able to fulfil. I don't know whether I believe in myself enough to make those dreams my goal. 
Sometimes I feel like I've forgotten how to English........... Hahaha no but seriously 

10 Nov 2014

Owlgriffs are awesome!!!

I've been feeling quite ill the last couple of days. Someone literally sneezed into my face the other day. Ugh. 
All that sitting at home, surrounded by all the tissues and electronic devices I could find around the house, made me rethink my future and my possible goals. Maybe I should not study documentary photography at UAL. Maybe I should do PPE. Hmm... Does that suit me better? Well according to futurewise, I should be an archaeologist. Thanks, futurewise!
I don't know what else to write. 
Owlgriffs are the best! I want one! 

4 Oct 2014

Trying to do something useful

I was inspired in chemistry class so this happened 
The "blogger" app makes all my pictures blurry so here's the drawing in better quality http://sonyash26.deviantart.com/art/Chemistry-lesson-486176887
I want to do something useful, but, on the other hand, I feel like staying in bed and watching One Piece all day. 
Going to the Japanese festival tomorrow. I am prepared to stuff my face with sushi and spend all my money on useless crap. 
What else did I want to write about? 
Okay bye.

18 Sept 2014

Year 11 is the boring continuation of year 10

Went to Starbucks with Dasha today. She's such an amazing person! 
I don't really like Year11 because it feels like Year10, but worse. In Year 10 everything was new to me and I was open to people. This year everything annoys me. I wish there were more people in our year since I can literally tell you the life story of every single person at school. 
Also, I'm the same person I was last year and that's a bit annoying as well. Every start of the school year I get this kind of nostalgia and think about the year before like "aw things were so different back then". But this year everything is the same! 

28 Oct 2013

I'm so sorry! I haven't posted in ages!

The last time I posted was such a long time ago. I'm so so so sorry!
It's just that there's nothing interesting going on around me and I no longer feel the need to write about myself and my feelings. I just finished watching this one anime so I'm going to write a review as soon as possible. Thanks to those of you who check my blog regularly. I'll try to post more often! ^_^
Please take a moment to check this out! I made it just for fun! 

7 Oct 2013

It has been such a long time since I have made a post like this...

So for the past couple of months I've been constantly trying to find myself and understand what kind of person I am on the inside. At one point I even came to a conclusion. The conclusion that I have become the person I have always wanted to be.
The other day in PSHE class they were telling us that a person is always trying to project some sort of image of themselves. No offence to the textbook author, but in my opinion that's complete BULLSHIT! Sorry for being so abrupt (I usually never swear on this blog), but I just can't stand it when society is constantly manipulating people's minds and blaming it on itself. Are they saying that I'm trying to look like someone when I haven't even found out who I really am? 
On the inside, I strongly disagree with myself. As I have said earlier I came to a conclusion that now I'm the person I've always wanted to be. I disagree without showing any evidence. I just don't believe that this has actually happened. Maybe it's just an illusion and I still haven't achieved the "perfect" form my body/soul can have. On the other hand, it's up to me to decide. I can't say that I've always wanted to be this way without knowing what image I want people to have of me. 

30 Jan 2013

I don't know what to write about so.... I'm just going to write about my day...?

Today was kinda boring since it was Wednesday aka Double Day. We have double Maths in the morning, double German, double English (ffffffffffffuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!) and French and Music at the end of the day.
Nothing happened in Maths... Our teacher was explaining something to us and it didn't make sense to me... Yasmin printed out this really useful thing she found on the Internet about circle theorems. It helped me more than the teacher's explanation...
German was... I wouldn't say it was fun, but we were watching a movie so... yeah.... (my writing skills are awesome, right!)
Lunch was cool. We sat with Dilbar (this dude from choir), but he thought we were bullying him and ran away...

Ok whatever.... This post sucks.....................

In English class Ms Manchala made us stand for like the whole period... Everyone finished reading the book except for a few people (that includes me). I CAN NOT concentrate on it. I sit (well, stand) there, read and then all of a sudden I realise that I'm not paying any attention to what I'm reading. Especially today when we had to stand! My bag was at my feet, I wanted to kick it away, but it was way too heavy to move. I tried to lean against the wall, but leaning against shelves is not very comfortable. I ended up standing straight and probably looking like a retard because I was constantly going turning the pages in my book trying to figure out what was going on... I could not read because our teacher was taking to us... How can you read and listen at the same time? Sometimes, I put my book down and listened to the unnecessary remarks she was making. I would forget where I was in the story... Yasmin was depressed because our daught..... that's personal. She was whispering stuff to me and I was very sad. Since we had to be silent, our teacher would tell us to shut up and we had to stand for an even longer period of time......

Well, I guess English was inspirational. I can't believe I wrote that much... I just love describing the things I hate.......

After, we had French (grumblegrumble) and Music (themostboringsubjectintheworldafterenglish)....
That post was amazing, wasn't it? I know.... I'm so "proud" of it.... Yeah..... Bye...... Meh.....

15 Jan 2013

THE worst day ever

If last week was the best week of the school year, yesterday was probably the worst day of my life. It was also Pongal and Makar Sankrati in India.
I was very excited on my way to school, but then, I realised that the first period was sports. Last week sports was fun, but this week it was the opposite. We had to do what they call "gymnastics". It's basically front rolls, back rolls, cartwheels, etc. I can not do any of these so the coach was lecturing me about how imortant it is to make decisions in life. "If you have a difficulty in your life are you gonna ignore it?" My response to his lecturing was "Well, there's life and there's sports class. It's different, you see?"
The day before yesterday Yaz and I were preparing for the following day. In our minds we were practising the whole day. I even packed myself a picnic lunch. We also took hair pins, so we could open locked doors as they do in movies.
We checked the music rooms, but all of them were locked. So, we went to the auditorium and realised that both doors were locked. We tried using hair pins. It doesn't work in real life, trust me! We wanted to "break in", but instead we "broke". I mean that instead of opening the door, the pin got stuck in the key hole. We took in out, but some of the paint stayed inside.
We didn't give up and tried opening the fire escape door. To our surprise it was locked and there wasn't even a door knob you could hold on to.
So we went back to class. And guess what class it was? It was English!!! The worst subject in the world!!! Yasmin and I sat together (even though our teacher gets mad at us when we do). I guess we made her happy by wishing her a happy Pongal.
English was meant to be for studying for the vocabulary test we were going to have later that day. I knew most of the words and could easily guess the meanings of those I didn't know. So Yaz and I started preparing for our duet rehearsal. We also doodled in our agendas.
The next thing was history. Yasmin asked Mr Woodbridge if he can let us practise during history. He agreed, but Mme Roussel, my history teacher, didn't.
At lunch, we checked the music rooms once again, but all of them were occupied. We wanted to see the security guard (we call him The Dog) to ask him if he has the keys to the auditorium. He said he didn't. The one who had the keys was this mean guy who we didn't want to talk to.
So we checked the music rooms over and over again, but the people wouldn't leave. We even checked the changing room, but it was locked.
So, disappointed, I went to get hot lunch and got this pumpkin thing (whatever that was) on my dress!
Furious, we ran outside, shouting that we were depressed. Luckily for us, the music rooms were free. We came in and started singing the song we are going to do for Ammy. We did quite well, but our voices weren't the best.
Since we missed homeroom, the next thing we had was languages. I had a German test that I didn't know about!!! How could that day get any worse? The teacher corrected the test straight away. I got a B.
After German, we had English (AGAIN!). This time Ms Manchala didn't allow us to sit together (sad face...). Yasmin told me that she failed the test. I think I did quite well (at least I didn't fail).
Yasmin borrowed her mum's phone for the day. It had the school wifi code in it, so we could use it to go on youtube and listen to the song we were practising. Yasmin never brings any electronics to school so she's not quite used to carrying it around.
Last recess we wanted to go to the music room because during Period 8 we had to sing the song to our music teacher. On our way out we forgot to take our jackets, so we camу back inside for them. Yasmin doesn't have pockets, so she had her mum's phone in her hand. She didn't notice Mr Barrow (the main "phone-confiscator" of the school) standing by. He told Yasmin that she will get it confiscated. We started telling him that it wasn't her phone and that she couldn't give it to him. He accused us for arguing and sent us to what we call "Alice's Wonderland" (the discipline office).
Alice there, talking to two boys, while pictures of little kids appeared on the screen of his computer. We stood there for at least 20 mins. At last, he let us come in.
We kept telling him that Yasmin needed the phone, but he wouldn't let us speak. His face was bright pink. He was shaking.
We were trying to sound as calm and as polite as possible.
"WHY ARE YOU SHOUTING AT ME?" screamed Alice. "I'M NOT SHOUTING AT YOU!"
There was nothing we could do, but apologise. He was the one shouting, not us, but he wasn't even listening to us!
"YOU WON'T LET ME TALK!" interrupted Alice. In reality, it was the opposite. He was the one not letting us talk.
He told us to get out and keep the phone in a very rude way, accusing us for being disrespectful.
On our way to class we saw Mrs Gilbert looking for us. She was very angry and asked us where we were.
During the rehearsal we were almost crying. It wasn't my best singing since my throat was dry.
Next step was maths class. As we rushed to class, we shouted how depressed we are, scaring the people around us. And then it hit us.... We had to bring a ruler, a compass and a protractor. We had neither of these things, so we could not do anything...

Moral: do not celebrate Indian festivals!

13 Jan 2013

Meh.....

School started sooner than I expected it to. It was the first time I didn't go to Moscow for New Year. New Year, itself, was probably the most boring one for me. None of my relatives were there and I was in my room, writing in my "diary" about how sad I am to be without them. The day after the catholic christmas I went to Yasmin's house. We stayed up for more than 24 hours and felt very bad afterwards.
That sums up my vacation.......

The first week of school was the best week of school I ever had. I didn't have any homework and Yaz and I had the best time ever.
Yesterday we went to the cinema and watched "Life of Pi", but that deserves a separate blog post.