Secrets I have held in my heart are harder to keep than I thought~

Writer's block is a bitch.
Yesterday I realised how much I love listening to music at the volume of my own thoughts. In complete darkness.
I spent the night thinking about the story I'm working on right now and decided to rewrite the whole thing. I mean, yes, the 3000 words I wrote will go to waste, but it's really nothing. I think I'll also rename the main character. What kind of sad person spends the whole night thinking about how much they can relate to the main character of their novel? Ha. Ha. Ugh, I don't want the main character to be too "relatable" because then the plot will be typical. On one hand, I want the main character to be like me, but then it will be like writing about myself in third person and that's strange. But then if I write in first person I won't be able to write about all the characters at once. Also, Gerry is fun to describe, but he doesn't relate to the story! I can't just squeeze him in, can I? Ughhh what is life......I need Gerry in the story because he's an interesting character to both me and the reader. I know what his role is, but like HOW DO I DESCRIBE IT. Okay, I give up. Bye.