Goats in trees

Do you have any songs that like physically hurt you? Like I was listening to "Foster the People" today omggg TT__TT It made me think of Year 11 and how I used to go to the library. I had such big dreams, what happened? I remember being kinda lonely, but also really happy because (I thought) I had a big future ahead of me. I also got reallly into phan and started reading phanfiction omg those were the days. Thinking whether I still had feelings for Charlie and realising I no longer did... Also getting close to Dasha. Those meaningful conversations about the end of the world, rereading "Battle Royale" and starting my book. Yeah my book, that was a thing wow. But then discovering I have to go to public school, listening to Muse in the dark with a cup of coffee at midnight. The taste of that sandwich from the library wending machine. And how cold it was and I was wearing my yellow jacket. Waiting for the tram to come, oh how cold it was, but I felt so warm on the inside. What is grammar? English grammar? Never heard of that. Tsh what even is punctuation? I don't even know... maybe i should stop using capital letters to keep the aesthetic

He remembers looking at it when he was a little boy, finding it strangely amusing how the bulging screen distorted his bony figure, making his dark blue shorts appear several sizes bigger, increasing the gap between his lanky-looking legs. He remembers it so clearly: the scruffy armchairs with velvet cushions, the croaky parquet with missing pieces, the old particles of dust, moving around the room in a calm waltz of satisfying disorder. He remembers the stack of magazines on the wood-smelling floor and a yellowing new year’s greeting card from 1989. He remembers all the little unnoticeable details of a place, which no longer exists. Is it a memory? Nothing is happening in that still picture, but, yet, sitting in front of a black computer screen, he scents its dilapidating atmosphere once again, almost smelling its soundless serenity.